I want to share a video with you, but I am reluctant to do so because, like any sane person, I fear your judgement.
In this video I share an experience from my childhood that has shaped my life and continues to do so. This particular childhood experience challenged my sense of the world and how I perceived myself.
The videographer asked me to talk about my background and how I got started in this work. Before I knew it, I was sharing something deeply private and protected for decades. As I spoke, I wondered whether to censor myself or to speak as frankly as I could.
I let the cat out of the bag. It’s out and on video now.
So, the question remains should I share it or not?
“Why share? What are you hoping to accomplish by doing so?” These are the questions I would ask of a client in a similar situation.
I realize the deeper motivation has to do with being transparent and allowing you to see my composition. I feel that sharing this video frees me from masks that I want to shed. In sharing it,
I am willing to live my truth, to be visible in it, and most importantly, I want you to know that about me!
I want to open a dialogue that goes beyond the gossipy, belittling snapchats and hear about soul journeys that live outside of homogenised realities. I want real conversations with you because I know there are things in your life that make you different.
I hope we are willing to hear different life stories. If you are, thank you.
Beautiful! Thank you for your openness.
Thanks Kimberly. Have you ever shared something very private publicly?
NavjitKandola A couple of years ago I did a photo shoot with a photographer whose process is about connecting women with a part or parts of themselves they want to explore, embrace and celebrate. It kicked off a journey that has continued for two years of owning my sensuality/sexuality and pulling myself out of “hiding”. It was very difficult to be vulnerable in front of the camera with just one person seeing me, let alone the many who ended up “seeing” me! Part of the process was sharing my experience in writing (along with the photos) on the photographer’s blog, which is also posted on FB! The feedback was very heart-warming; felt good to be witnessed.
The experience you described Navjiy is not at all unusual for a person of your spiritual level. Advanced meditators and practicioneers of out of body experience have already experience these types of consciousness expansion and encounters with beings from other dimensiom. To me your experience is simply a consequence of your evolutionary level. And these types if exerience are rather common among shaman, advance tibetan buddhism lama , etc
The question is what meaning you have given to it and why you have chosen this specific meaning. And what come to my mind listening to you is with whom you want to share this experience and what type of explanation or validation you are searching for. That my 2 cents on your video! Be well 🙂
Kimberly padgett NavjitKandola What an incredible experience to give to yourself. How do you feel about your sexuality/sensuality now?
Smilenlucky Hello Smilenlucky. Thank you for sharing your 2 cents. To answer your questions: I want to share my experience with you and others like you and me. I want it to be less scary to talk about experiences that are out of the ordinary. And 2 I am not searching for validation or explanation but rather opening the door wider for conversations outside the norm.
Already, the response has been great.
Have you had any experiences that awoke you to a different sense of yourself?
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Amazing response in fact! The experience I had is more of a remembering who I was before I was born in this physical life . … pure awareness and intense beauty . Sometime I can go back in that experience of being limiltless and it feels like being a Galaxies of Supernova and then I thought I am remembering my past or is it the memory of a possible future .., our home
Smilenlucky I totally get what you are saying. I think of it as future memory – future meaning higher/evolved states of awareness – non-dual awareness in fact. My questions are: what next – once we have these experiences what do we want to do with them? How can we harvest them to enlighten/ease the hardships of the moments when we feel completely disconnected from home?
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. I hope you will continue to invest in these experiences.
Ahh those millions dollar questions! For me I had to walk my own path and figure out a lot of things when it comes to the spiritual experiences I have in this life, and by spiritual experiences I mean both the good and the bad, the good one being advanced state of consciousness, deeper level of well being, etc and the not good one can be unexplainable sadness, feeling like a stranger in a strange land, refusing the lesson of physical life etc. I have found my own unique way by really embracing me as a soul and not as a physical being. Being connected with my Soul identity helps a lot. I review and look at my life experience as a Soul.I bless the day when on Earth our bio and CV will include not only our past from this life but all of our Soul Identity which include past lives and probable future scenario! Will that not be wonderful Navjit? . To be more specific to your question on what to we do with these valuable experience, I see them today more as information for our future possibility giving us a path for our Soul Evolution. These experiences have organic consequences because they inform our future, make us use our time wisely, We become more lucid and discerning on how and and on what we spend our energies and focus. They also give us a deeper appreciation on our time. But not always easy, life on earth can be hard, the sense of lost, the drop in frequency .. missing our Sweet and Real home. I have to learned and masters many things and i am work in progress. These experiences sometimes help me to feel nurtured and gives me a sense of optimism and above all make me want to outsmart linear achievement, finding other portal to access these states. and quicken our evolution. I want speed, velocity, acceleration .. I desire to be the radiant supernova and i want to be it now and not in the future …..Our glorious and magnificent Selves!
Smilenlucky TAT TVAM ASI, my friend. You speak my language.